im not really sure what to do with myself
i dont know who to call
i mean ive called my parents,
and i know im not so up for
hanging out with a lot of people
im not sure who to talk to
i really think i should just...pray
and pray and pray
then pray some more?
that requires isolation tho..but actually
not really
i guess ive juss been on my own most of the day
and part of me really wants to see familiar faces
the other part isnt sure if itd be very good for me to
i dont know if i should be able to talk to some people at this state
i dont want to say things or make unwise decisions
from the sheer 'in the moment' feeling of
'oh im leaving tomorrow'
i think i need to respect the work that God has already done
im a people pleaser
i wanna hang out
i wanna spend time
i want people to realize that they're important
and liked and ...important
and i want to be with them
but i feel really conflicted
its 10:23
is davis over?
is it all just India from here?
at least for two weeks..well
no
itll be longer than two weeks
and itll be longer than from the time i leave to get back
im still carrying some hawaii 'baggage' with me
i need to straighten out my thoughts..
i need to find a way to clear my mind
why cant i think of someone to pray with?
i need to find a way to clear my mind
why cant i think of someone to pray with?
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